I know it’s been forever. Life makes me more dead than alive than ever. A week ago, I noticed something wrong. No one really follows me, unless I shove the URL in their faces, but I received notifications saying I have followers. Their e-mails don’t seem legit. Not that I mind those with weird e-mail addresses. You know something’s off when you see it.
With no further ado, I should recount my favourite moment of the year so far. None. My grand mother’s brother turned 100. Good for him. Then what? Nothing ever happens. No terrorism. No exciting serial killer stories. No plane crash, natural disaster, WWIII. It’s good that we don’t experience those. On the other hand, though, it makes everything so mundane. I’ve become extremely lethargic when my life isn’t in danger, or nothing chases behind me. I need a motivation. It’s unhealthy, but I can really use a kick.
When my finals are over, I’m going to put an end to my past. Identity crisis? Not really, no. I may not be the same person I used to be, however it doesn’t mean that person doesn’t contribute to my being. You hear whispers from the other you echoed in the back of your mind. Sometimes you look back to hear what they have to say. At times, they shout in a raspy voice from a dark corner. Their eyes are bloodshot. Angry. Hurt. Twisted. Because you leave them behind. They never see light. Never feel the warmth. I want a closure. I want to set them free. To clear my conscience and put my mind to rest. I don’t want a redemption. I only want to see it through. So there’s that.
Ah, and of course, I should mention that due to my ever shifting passion, I take up calligraphy, snail mailing, and collecting feathers. I also have an urge to write. A writer I looked up to when I was a teenage ‘resurrected’ a couple of days ago. His reappearance created a spark I needed. Now I need a whiteboard. Or a cork board? Whatever floats the boat, I suppose.
I shouldn’t be loitering around writing this. I here by bid you a temporary farewell.